We do not have a spirit of fear.

I woke up with those words in my head.  We do not have a spirit of fear.

We do not have a spirit of fear…but of… then I couldn’t remember the next part!

I have spent the last few nights waking often with bad dreams, unable to fall back into slumber for all of my worrying.  Living in the city will mean the possibility of someone breaking in, of my kids running out into a busy street, of having a neighbor be creepy…

I would wake up and not be able to stop thinking about how I needed a taller fence, an alarm system, a way to make sure Finn doesn’t open the door to strangers.

We’re actually moving to a very nice area of the city, but it still has more crime than I’m used to.  Beau is beyond excited.  He loves the idea of being in a fast paced, walk to everything, urban jungle.  It was making him so sad that I was becoming so anxious, and in turn, me sad that I was making him sad…which creates more anxiety!

The other day I got our new wall paper in the mail.  Pretty peonies, butterflies, and grasshopper wall paper! (which has symbolism for me in itself…from locusts to the land of milk and honey!)  Screen shot 2013-06-22 at 9.47.01 AMIn the instructions for hanging the wall paper it said I would need a plumb line.  Immediately something in my heart said, “That’s what I need!” I knew I’d seen that word in the bible somewhere…

“See, I lay a stone in Zion, a tested stone,
    a precious cornerstone for a sure foundation;
the one who relies on it
    will never be stricken with panic.
17 I will make justice the measuring line
    and righteousness the plumb line” Isaiah 28:16,17

That verse is a bit out of context, but I love idea of being weighted down and even keeled by God so we are not stricken with panic.

This morning I read this post by Alia Indrawan about being grounded to keep your energy flowing.  She talked about imagining a rope tied to your center, and then putting a weight on the end of it and letting it fall to the center of the earth, allowing anything troubling you to flow down the rope and be burned in the fire.  She says to use your imagination and let your grounding cord be unique for you.  For me I picture myself as a tree, my roots going down to the living water of God.

“But blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord,

whose confidence is in him.

They will be like a tree planted by the water

that sends out its roots by the stream.

It does not fear when heat comes;

its leaves are always green.

It has no worries in a year of drought

and never fails to bear fruit.”

Jeremiah 17:8

I think the evil one would love for me to be stricken with panic about living in my new beautiful home so clearly provided by God.  To be unable to bear fruit and feel freedom.  Sorry, Satan.  Not going to happen.

Beau said to me last night (on our ten year anniversary!) a verse that I so dearly love: “store up your treasures in Heaven, where thieves do not break in and steal.”

So we may have a thief break in and steal something.  But my treasures are grounded in something deeper than my basement and more ethereal than my attic.  My plumb line goes straight to Him and my foundation has been set by God. Moths and rust and neighbors cannot frighten me because…

I do not have a spirit of fear, but of POWER.

“For God has not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.” 2 Timothy 1:7

Though I may need to set my plumb line daily to remind myself!

I also really enjoyed seeing all of these pictures today, that reminded me there are lots of good people in the world! 21 pictures that will restore your faith in humanity

And by the way…the neighbors we share our driveway with are AWESOME.  They have a 5 year old girl and a 3 year old boy who are hoping they’ll still get to roast marshmallows in our fire pit this summer.  Precious!  And yes please!

8 thoughts on “We do not have a spirit of fear.

  1. So full of truth! Blessed by your heart, your faith, your journey, Bridget! Thank you for sharing. (And I’m swooning over that wallpaper!)

  2. So true! Fear paralyzes and chokes out life. On days when I’m feeling extra wobbly, I love that that verse promises us a sound mind. Yes, please. So thankful our Father delights in our well being, that he is with us and will take care of us. Courage, friend, and thank you for writing!

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